Guns, Words, and Bodies

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As an educator,

As a girl/woman who has been overexposed to the impacts of aggression, as a child, a teenager and even an adult,

As a mother of a child who hits and bites, I can say from a logical and emotional space that acts of aggression are always acted out impulses by people who don't have the words to communicate what their bodies are deep down feeling. Their body vibrations are struggling with nations and people of those nations that were built, in many ways, upside down, sideways, and in hostile fashions.

When the words you use are insufficient to describe your corporeal existence, 

Too insufficient to describe your psychological needs.

When an entire system of language that only a select (and perhaps elite select) few understand, doesn't equip you to navigate your urges and your pain, it's actually quite easily that you can lose your impulse control.

Our ability to handle impulse control can only be measured on a spectrum that represents who we are in the moment, not who we were when we served the military, who we were before we lost a loved one, who we were before we worked with a boss that degraded our sense of self-worth, who we were before unknowingly our estrogen/testosterone levels changed and altered our neurological pathways, making us into different cellular matter--different human beings.

Who we were a year ago,

when life wasn't

.....harder, much much harder.

I believe that all of our impulse control is unstable;

that all of us are one trauma away,

one abusive environment away,

one brain development/de-evolution away,

from overthinking ourselves into dangerous mental spots.

Without education, without supportive networks, without insurance, without access to therapy and medical care, many of us would never be able to identify when we enter dangerous mental spots.

...and so we may behave with our unregulated bodies, with unregulated tools, to express our unregulated hearts.

We have no control over the human condition.

Our minds are too fragile,

Our impulse controls too vulnerable,

Our language too incompetent. 

Our approach toward those who don't understand our language too negligent.

Which is why WE NEED TIGHT, REASONABLE GUN CONTROL.

There is just too many spaces between words and bodies to give control to guns. 

...and one loud note here: adolescents having free reign access to guns before their brains and bodies are fully formed is NOT RIGHT, GAWD DAMN IT!